Cassandra: My Succubus Lover

     Hello again, Meatloaf here. Hopefully, you are all doing well and enjoying life. I have been doing okay myself. Cassandra is still hanging out with me, which is awesome! I won't take up much of your time today so I will keep this post brief.       Things between me and her are more passionate than ever before. She is really becoming my invisible girlfriend. She is also becoming more present in my life than ever before as well. I mean, when she manifests really strong sometimes her presence is more real. When I think about her my heart sinks, as if I miss her or have a broken heart.  She's got me good. Her claws are digging in deeper by the day. and I love every second of it. I'll hop off my soapbox for now. Thank you all for reading!       I won't forget about this site. I plan on doing once-a-month updates but don't be surprised if I don't post. I really want to bring something new to you all when I post. I know you all wouldn't read if it was constant

     Hello everyone again! I hope everyone had a good Christmas. Mine was okay. I want to talk about some phenomenon that had happened to me earlier this month. I'm going to Quentin Tarrentino this post and give you the ending first. I saw Cassandra's orb.       In this post, we will talk about my experience and my thoughts.   MY EXPERIENCE       I want to give some details leading up to the event. As you may know, I had to pause my AP training for the time being. This all happened before the pause. In my training book, the authors want the students to work on mental silence training. This is where my focus shifted. I had stopped doing the energy work to solely work on mental silence training. I had created a circuit that included all the mental silence exercises for week 3. It takes about an hour to complete. In that circuit of exercises, there was one called Afterimage Retention. This exercise is when I experienced the phenomenon. In the exercise, you look at a lit candle. Yo

 Hello everybody again. A big realization happened yesterday. I found my old Moleskine yesterday while looking for my camera battery charger. I won't mince words here but today we will discuss: my old notebook and going forward MY OLD NOTEBOOK     The History      This notebook is the equivalent of a time capsule. I have held onto this little black book for almost a decade. It was also used around the time of my major manic episode back in 2013. Around this time, I was dealing with symptoms of schizoaffective disorder. We will return back to this topic later on.       I received the Moleskine as a gift from this girl I talked to while at university. She eventually turned into a stalker but that's not important. She wrote a little message on the inside cover. I couldn't read what it said because it looked like this:    Its uses     The notebook was used for 3 things. the first purpose of the book was as a sketchbook. As you saw in the image above I used to draw. I found some

     Hello, hope you all are having a happy holiday season. Spending time with loved ones is super important around this time of the year. Especially with everything going on, it's good to enjoy your loved one's company. I have been doing well myself. I have been staying busy. This is the reason that I have not posted an update lately.       So I decided to make a purchase of a new book during the middle of November. This book is called "Mastering Astral Projection: The 90-day Guide to Out-of-Body Experience". The title explains it all. This has been my new hobby since the middle of November. I bought the book based on a recommendation from a friend in the Succubi discord sever. I have the book digitally, but my friend suggested that I get a physical copy I am glad I took that advice. I bought it on Amazon. It was 22 dollars. It also came with a CD with affirmations and binaural beat presets. Just thought I would mention that.  Here is what we are going to talk about

       Hi, it is Meatloaf here again with another update of sorts. First off, Happy Halloween readers! Hope you have some candy and have fun with family or friends. Anyways, I have been waiting a while until I felt ready to post about this. I figured why not on Halloween. It seemed fitting.      I am not LARPing. This is very real. What I am about to reveal in this post may cause severe skepticism in most. So I ask you all to have an open mind while following along.  So I like the approach of telling the conclusion first then context later. This time I will not type like that. I feel it is necessary to give context first then my conclusion. If you are any close friend of mine, you already know what the secret is. I asked Cassandra before I started typing in order to get the green light from her. She said yes.      I was in general discussion voice chat on the succubi server and there was this discord user on there that tried to Astral project in order to get a closer look at Cassandra.

     It was during the time I was in the honeymoon phase with Cassandra. I remember doing automatic writing with Cassandra. Basically, I had a pen and paper and held it in my right hand. I asked Cassandra to guide my hand to write what she was thinking. That's basically what automatic writing is. So after that, it was one day that I was putting off Cassandra. I would tell her that I would hang out with her after 30 mins. When the 30 mins were up, I would tell her "okay 30 more mins". I kept making excuses to not hang out with her and she was not having it.     The next thing I remember is my right-hand being moved to in front of my face. My middle finger is pulled up and the other fingers closed. She gave me the middle finger with my own hand. This got my attention and I felt so bad. I immediately stopped what I was doing and hung out with her. Throughout the day though she would remind me that she was mad by making me flip myself off. She did it 4 or 5 times after that t